Abt 9 years ago, we met in sec sch. I was still this little sec 1 girl, "fresh" from pri sch. Sometimes, you just have to look a bit different (in a positive way), play sports to "catch" the attention of those senior boys.

Obviously, due to the small sch population, I was one of those who somewhat shone a little due to my coloured hair and sporty personality.

He was from Basketball. Sec 2 then. Sch team player.

His friend was going after me. One occasion, we went out as a grp (with the guy who went after me). His friend left early. In the end, I am alone with him. We chatted at the underground MRT Station for abt 3 - 4 hours. We went home separately. When he reached his station, he had to pay extra $2 for passing the time limit.

After a while, we got together.

4 months.

We broke up.

I cried.

We became friends after a while as I believed that if we could not be lovers, we can always be friends. We still go out as a group but we seldom spoke.

8 years later, on 1 occasion, I messaged him on msn to say hi and asked how he was doing. I knew he was attached to a pretty ger since he was 17.

We chatted. But we did not meet up although he asked me out to club on a few occasions.

We spoke on the phone one night. Talked abt a lot of things. He mentioned things which happened 8 years ago, topic which I tried to avoid. He told me he wanted to ask for a patch up when I was in sec 3 but decided to give up the idea as I was very close to a guy from Sec 4 (who also ended up being my bf then). He didnt like that guy.

He was surprised that I could still remember his residential phone number. But I must say that I did not memorise it intentionally. I am just good at phone numbers..


We finally met up recently for a drink. I found that that the girl had broken up with him.

We went out on another occasion, just hanging out in the street aimlessly. On the way back, he asked if I have ever consider to be his gf again. I said no, without thinking. He was shocked by my fast response.

After so many years, everyone changed. Feelings especially.

Some things, you just gotta earn it back.

Trust. I must say it's hard to earn back.

He gave me up once. He may give me up again.

How can I trust when he bleached it in the beginning?

Maybe I already have an idea of what kind of guy I really wanna be with.
Maybe he is just not the one.
Maybe the chemistry is not there anymore.
Maybe we are better of as friends.
Maybe I already have someone in mind.
Maybe he was just that chapter in my life.