Today the emotion sets in again..

I stared at the ceiling this morning thinking about what happened over the past few days and I just can't help feeling a little upset over it.

This feeling is disgusting because I felt exactly the same in 2006 and it seems like a deja vu. Except that I am seeing it happening almost everyday now.

The dates are drawing near and the amount of effort out in just cannot be justified.

I am affected.


Physically.

Emotionally.

Mentally.

I just feel like shutting myself up in my own world and ignore ehatever that happened to me earlier on.

Maybe too sensitive.

Maybe there is nothing.

Maybe there is something.

I just feel super pissed and angry about myself for letting this happen to me again.

I don't wish to talk about it and please don't bother asking me.

Don't tell me what to do.

Don't tell to cheer me up.

No use. No point.

Just let me continue to rot my life away.

FML...