I met up with Mr J for coffee at JP just now. It was quite funny cos I havent seen him for a while..

He looks better now.. Got a job and doing well.. Happy for u, boy.

Anyway,it was 10 years ago (YES, EXACTLY 10 freaking years ago) when he was going after me.. It was also somewhere around this period when we got together.. So time flies u see... Haha..

After meeting up with him, I called another of my ex (the very last one). I shall call him Mr T to protect his identity.. Haha.. I have always wanted to meet up with Mr T cos our talk-cock sessions (me, Mr T & Ting) are really nonsensical... which is what I like..

Mr T was my very last bf, which happened abt 7+ years ago.. We have always been on talking term shortly after we broke up. Of cos I was devastated when we first broke up cos it was a very sudden decision. I was ditched. But I decided to embrace and move on.. Which I am glad I did..

After we got back on talking term we did laugh abt it and he got attached shortly (after 2 years) with my full support. So the last time I met him was when he just got together with this girl. Just now when I called him wanting to ask for a makan and catch up session with me & Ting, he told me that he just broke up with his gf! He went on to say I jinxed him. But I guess he jinxed me more for a unbroken record of 7 years of singlehood.. We both agreed that it was somewhat a retribution.. Haha..

Anyway, I am going to meet up with him and Ting for dinner on Wed.. Looking forward to hear his story and be there for him during this tough time.. That's what friends are for.. :)

I started to look back at my sec sch days when I got attached on and off with different guys (less than 5 though)almost throughout the 4 years. I think I was getting attached just for the sake of getting attached. Everyone was still naive in their thinking, me too.

I have been avoiding the commitment into a relationship for the past 7 years becos of other priorities in life. I dunno whether I can be a good gf.. Will my future bf be able to take my wide social circle? As in my big clique of guys and girlies? Will he be very possessive and want to control me a lot? Will I be able to talk things out when needed? Will he be the one who is there at the right time?

Now that I have seen and experienced more things in life, I think I am clearer of what I want.. But for now, I think I still need some time for myself and for my girlies. And of cos, I want some time with my family.