Life is like a roller coaster ride..

Now I believe in this saying..

Ppl always know me as a bubbly and cheerful individual.. Many dunno that I am actually at my all time low recently..

Many things happened and caused the change in my mood.

Sometimes, I just need ppl around me to be more understanding..

I dun like it when ppl like telling me to pon (skip) one event to attend another. Especially when the event I am asked to skip is something of great importance and significance to me..

What is then deem as significant and important?

1. JJ Affairs (esp when it concerns Character Development Programme)
Examples: training student leaders and running camps.

This one is like a sure no-no. Unless I personally say I want to skip the event, if not please dun try asking me to give it a miss. If I tell u that I have to attend the above-related events. just smile and say ok.. Dun even try asking me if it is possible to skip.

2. *CPS Affairs (esp when it concerns the well being of my students or at the expense of my colleagues)

This is going to be the upcoming 2nd most important thing in my life for the next 3 years. I am paid to do the job becos I am bonded. So I have to live with the fact that I will be called by the school anything to settle some important stuff. Meaning to say that sometimes if I were to back out from gatherings or functions at the very last minute, it may be due to work commitment.

Actually I am quite lost now.. I dunno who to confide my problems to.Becos somehow ppl whom I want to share the problems are parts of the problems themselves.. So things become a little tricky.

I hope u guys/gers will understand that I am currently at a very difficult crossroads in life now. Either make or break. Only I can help myself.. Dun add on to my problems.. Just be a bit more patient with me.. I apologised for causing anyone to be pissed out or worried during these few weeks..

I must pull thru... I will be back stronger..



*CPS -Clementi Primary School