These 2 days have been tiring and hectic for me..
Mentally and physically.
My class took part in the ICG this year for Vball and it almost tear our class (some of us) apart. I am serious and not joking. We played badly and I felt bad too. I think I made a lousy captain..
Apparently one of our classmates had too high expectation on us and some of us just panicked and could not live up to it. I can understand both parties' point of view. Some of our classmates are lack of competitive games exposure. Therefore, when we played with a stronger team, some tend to play badly becos of the unspoken pressure upon us.
I felt extremely low these 2 daes. Not only becos I could not play like I used to (Thanks to my old injury) but also beocs I did not make a good captain. I did not make the call for impt decision. Somehow I felt like puppet.. As much as I tried to organise training session, some just refused to turn up and only showed up on Match Day and asked me to let them play. How can I possibly say no? I just do not want to strain the classmates' relationship. Will anyone listen to my call? Although I can't play the game really well as I have just picked up this Sports not long ago, I feel that I deserve to be asked for comments as a captain. But I guess it will not happen in future games too.. It is more like ppl only look up to u if u are good. I am really disheartened by this.
But I ALWAYs believe that it takes 2 hands to clap. I am at fault too. If I have been more vocal in terms of expressing myself, all the above might not have happened.
It turned out that we let some "undeserving chap" play during one of the set and he was being criticised for his attitude by another classmate. If u wanna come play for the class, pls show some positive attitude.
These Vball ICG has given me many learning pointers. Both good and bad. It also allows me to see some of my classmates differently. Both good and bad too..
As for me, I think I have to keep learning and it is time not to take the back seat and stand up for what I believe it's good and right for the majority. BUt will ppl listen and support? Will see..